brain floaters

Well that's an odd post title, but I am in an odd mental state after all. Things floating around in my brain right now:

• We have financing!! Very, very good news! Chris found a broker with 30 years of experience who will get us an FHA loan as long as we have a lease signed and first and last month's rent in hand for the condo. Wow. What a relief.

• Along with that good news comes the stress of many, many decisions to be made. We have to rent our place. We have to put a house worth of stuff in storage. We have to have a place to stay during the period when we've rented out our place and are looking for/waiting to close on a house. I will probably have a month left of work during that time, and we will probably have to stay with Chris's parents at least until I'm done with work. Then Celia and I could stay with my parents for a while. I will either have a very long commute, or have to stay with friends on my work days. Celia won't see as much of me, and she will be away from her home which sometimes stresses her out. Will she be okay? Will it be stressful for her to be away from home, and when we finally leave to go "home" to a strange new place? Will she be upset that she can't go home to the only home she's ever known? 

• Will I be upset not to go home to the place we've called home for four and a half years? The place we bought when we were just engaged, planned our wedding in, came home from our honeymoon to, raised a baby Celia in? I want a house with our own space and our own yard, and to be in the house we'll live in until our kids are grown and beyond, but it will be hard to leave this condo. 

• If we rent our condo and move out, we will want to find a house as soon as possible. That adds pressure. There isn't much inventory in the towns we want to move to, and we're hoping that after seeing a couple more houses we'll have something we would want to make an offer on. 

• I yelled at my boss yesterday. Yep. Hopefully a once in a lifetime thing, but if she continues to be my boss there's no telling what will happen. Horrible work situation right now. Things are happening that are not good for my little students, and I'm fighting hard to advocate for them but it isn't going well. I mean, clearly it isn't going well if mild mannered little me reached the point of yelling at work. Not good. 

•  If I didn't have a witness, no one would believe I yelled. Extremely out of character. 

• I'll be working very hard to keep my cool on Thursday morning when we have a meeting on the student I'm fighting about. I'm tempted to just not show up because I honestly don't want to see the coordinator's face ever again. But, I'll be there, disgruntled as ever.

• I'm writing now because Celia has been playing in her crib for a half hour and refuses to come out. Apparently I get to have the morning off ;). Oops, she just called for me. Gotta go...